It was nearing February of 2015 and my financial situation was sinking. If I kept going on in the same direction I was headed, by March I would have been completely broke and quite possibly behind on rent and other bills. The times were getting tough, I had decided to go back to work outside of the home a year before this thinking I would make more money. Even with a fantastic administrative position for a local office, I wasn’t making enough to provide for my three children. We had recently moved into this home rental in July of the prior year, the kids and me alone. The job would seem to be a great way for me to afford the $1100 monthly rent and the bills associated with renting a house on my own again, but it didn’t pan out. I was faced with having to miss out on time with my kids, the same kids who were used to me working at home a majority of their lives and having me there after school for homework and to hear about their days. I was also having to start to face the reality of being late on rent and not paying other bills, if I didn’t make change soon!
I started dealing with other personal stuff too, and times were getting overwhelming. I was sinking into a hole both financially and emotionally. I had to make a choice but to be honest; I was scared to jump right back to working from home full time again. I hadn’t had clients in a long time and my blog was only bringing in a small revenue stream. I was scared and fear was driving the boat as I calculated out income vs expenses to realize the bills weren’t going to be covered much longer. The cost of having my kids in afterschool care and the anxiety of having my oldest walk to my office after school, it was all getting to me and I didn’t want this life any longer. I wanted a life in which I was happy, financially stable and able to be the Mama I enjoy being.
With a bit of emotional support and logical conversations with my man, the decision was made. I can thank the sign that still hangs above my desk today that says, “Be the Change you Want to See” as my largest push to get back home again. I started looking at how virtual assistants and bloggers were making money in 2015, as opposed to the methods I had used since 2008. I dove into selling articles to people in FB groups; I started creating packages to be a consistent ghostwriter on other blogs. Within a very short time, I was able to surpass the income from the job and come to a financial place where I just needed to make the choice to jump back home or keep being miserable at my job. I jumped!
This month marks one year since I made the decision to come back home, working from my home office where I am happiest. I have been able to work from home not only for my own clients, but actually put to use my skills combined with my man’s skills to survive financially. Even if the relationship were to fail, which it shall not, I would still be better off as of current date in supporting my three children as a single mom than I was one year ago this month. The average hourly wage I was getting paid, after deductions, health insurance and child care payments, was less than $8 or $7 per hour. I am now making nearly $100 per hour on average when I track my hours worked to income brought in [and I don’t work 40 hours per week either, so I have extra free time to focus on passionate writing and being with the family] and this my friends, is what keeps me ticking!
The fact that I made a decision to better the life of my children both financially and emotionally by coming back home to work doing something that I love and now have a business partner and man by my side to work with too? This life is almost surreal most days. This is why I continue to write for others, I continue to try to share my truth of how fear doesn’t have to drive your train …. You can make change; it’s a matter of being certain of what path you desire most! Today I don’t regret a single struggle that happened in the last year of returning back home to work full time, for those struggles are what have made me stronger, smarter and happier today.
A huge shout out of thanks and gratitude to those who came to me last year as I returned home and hired me to be their virtual assistant and ghostwriter. I cannot thank my clients enough, yes even those who purchased multiple direct sale articles in FB groups, I thank you all for having Faith in my skills and for continuing to keep me on your “payroll” as an independent contractor. I also want to thank my man for always having Faith in knowing I could do this. I thank my children for always being there with patience and understanding as I worked more hours than desired to get back into working from home again. Everything that has happened in the past year has made me realize that there is true kindness and love in the world, you just need to open your eyes to see it. Thank you to everyone!