I desire to heal. Isn’t that what we all desire as human beings? To live a life that is fulfilling, with purpose and to feel like we are whole. On November 16, 2017, when I made the commitment to myself, it wasn’t a plan to hurt anyone or to push away from anyone, it was and still is a genuine commitment to finding my center again. There are certain ways in which my life and view of experiences have been forced to change over the past couple of years. There are ways in which I have to adapt as a parent, as a partner, as an individual. With each new experience, I was losing confidence, instead of gaining growth from experience.
On November 16, 2017, my commitment to myself was all about being the person who finds the positive while still remaining loyal to what I need in life. To be the positive thinking person who makes the world a brighter place and brings a smile on everyone’s face, simply by being the person I am deep within my soul. I desired to heal. I wanted to find a way to heal the pain I’ve experienced. I’ve suffered so much with sadness from disappointment, let downs and what I’ve always called my happy chaos. Things have piled up and continue to do so each day but because I made the commitment to myself, I am able to handle those things better.
I think every person will always be a work in progress, we have to open our minds, hearts and listen to our gut as a means to get back on track with what’s best for the person we are. This doesn’t mean the life we live has to end, it means the life we have been living needs an adjustment. Adapting and growing in life is an important part of feeling like things are getting better. I always have more hope in humankind than the average person, I believe people can change when inspired to do so and I firmly believe that love, not war, helps heal and bring people forward in life.“The only journey is the journey within.” — Rainer Maria RilkeClick To Tweet
Baby steps forward because that commitment I made to myself will continue to be embedded in my brain as I work to speak kinder, smile more and worry less. Cheers to your New Year, I welcome 2018 with open eyes, open arms, and an open heart.