False Alarm Bells

As she walks through her daily life, she feels a little flustered, or perhaps it’s a deep-seated frustration? Flustered speaks to her of a positive, more playful feeling, but she is feeling a little less playful. Rather, her emotions are leaning toward wondering where something will end up.

She wants to know if the subtle changes she notices are simply part of her trauma rearing its ugly head from the younger days of youth when she had to read the room for safety. This habit she formed many years ago is surfacing, and she wants to trust it, yet logically she knows it has zero to do with her current environment.

How does she work through this pattern that continues to show up as frustration with herself? Well, that is where I am heading today with this blog post; I want to share a way to work through these shadows that show up when we least expect them.

Life is going great!

Your work or business is increasing. You are getting results and feel pretty awesome! Then it happens, this lingering feeling of something that you can’t place your finger on. The emotion could be defined, such as the emotion above of frustration lingering … or perhaps it wasn’t frustration, it was more alarm bells ringing, causing a FIRE ALERT for something that simply was a smoke screen.

It was Spirit letting me know that what is frustrating me has more to do with my inner child stuff surfacing, so I can heal that little girl who needed love, comfort, and safety.

How do you work through the inner child wounds that surface?

The best way to work through these inner child wounds, at least for me, has been to pause, crinkle my forehead, and think! I look around the room I am in and realize that the way I am feeling or what I think is DANGER, is not what it seems. I have the alert in my mind that something is going to cause me harm, right here, right now, but I am safe.

I am secure.

I am comfortable.

I am loved.

I am good.

Yet, the alarms keep ringing. OMG, someone did something outside of their normal habit. It causes my mind to bring fear. Yet, I have no legitimate reason to feel this way.

The alarm bells are an outdated inner warning system that is no longer relevant because I am not a child living in chaos. I am an adult living in a safe environment, surrounded by friends and family who love me and care about me. I am safe. I have no reason for these alarm bells.

Yet, they continue to ring.

Louder. Louder. Louder.

It’s almost enough to drive me insane!

These alarm bells go off for the littlest things and have me realizing just how much I lived in survival mode as a child, and well into my adult years. Now that I am in my angel number year, it seems that shadows are unraveling, and I’ve enough logical brain cells to offset the alarms just enough to keep myself out of a straitjacket.

That said, living with these shadows without a sense of logic and reasoning could be disastrous. You see, our shadows don’t make sense to those outside of us, but they make sense to us. We can literally think these shadow pieces that give off those alarm bells are legitimate.

Perhaps this alarm is telling you of a future issue that will arise.

Maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t.

What I started to ask myself was this: “Do I want to live in a world where my subtle alarm bells control my life, thus having me live in fear, or do I want to live in a world where light and trust are my main focus, so I can live in LOVE?”

The simple answer is: I want to be love and light.

I want to trust and live fully.

I want to know that God has my back, and that if anyone is in my life being deceitful or wishing harm on me, that God has me protected, and whatever is meant for them will happen to them. It is not my concern.

The only thing that is my concern (or yours, reading this) is that you show up in the best version of yourself. Be the love for someone like me, struggling with these alarm bells. It may not be easy, and not everyone is up for the challenge, but LOVE, REAL LOVE? That is often up for any challenge, especially when it is combined with a strong sense of FAITH.

Someone, like me, struggling with these outdated alarm bells simply want to be loved, to be heard, and to feel a softness of words and actions that show her,“it will be OK” because that’s something she didn’t get when she was a young child full of joy in her heart and love in her soul.

SO today, if you are struggling with those alarm bells that tell you a subtle habit change means danger is on the rise, please pause. Please journal about it. Take a moment to truly look around your environment, and ask yourself these questions as you write in your journal:

• What is this feeling?
• Why am I feeling this?
• Is this truly about the moment I am in or the person I am around?
• What can I do to shift my mind toward safety?
• Is this an old, yet familiar feeling that I’ve experienced before?
• What can I do to show up in love and light for my inner child right now?

Take a moment to give yourself a big hug. Wrap those arms around you and ask God to give you the warmth and comfort right here, right now that you deserve and need. While you may not have received this comfort as a young child, you can absolutely receive it now, and your younger self will thank you just as much as the version of you that exists five years from now will thank you.